The Life of Paige...

update of my life...

Mon, 10 Aug 2009 00:00:33 GMT

Fuck You

i think that covers it.

the closer i get the more i can tell

Sun, 02 Aug 2009 23:52:59 GMT

001. Real name → Paige Gabrielle
002. Nickname(s) → bitch. j-po. paiger. paiges. pagey-poo
003. Zodiac sign → scorpio
004. Male or female → Female
005. Elementary → Oxhead
006. Middle School → Dawnwood
007. High School → Centereach HS
008. Hair color →light brown?
009. Long or short →medium at the moment i suppose
010. Loud or Quiet → depends
011. Sweats or Jeans or underwear → as in my favorite to wear? jeans.
012. Phone or Camera → iphone
013. Health freak? → at times
014. Drink or Smoke? → heineken light please
015. Do you have a crush on someone? → yeppp a big big big one
016. Eat or Drink → depends if im hungry or thirsty
017. Piercings → on my ears and lip
018. Tattoos → not yet in a few months though

HAVE YOU EVER?
019. Been in an airplane→ yessssss
020. Been in a relationship → yeapp
021. Been in a car accident → one.
022. Been in a fist fight → not any good ones

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → earss.
024. First best friend → taylor
025. First award → soccer
026. First crush → either frankie or matt
028. First big vacation → probably disney

LASTS:
029. Last person you talked to → papa
030. Last person you texted → jessie
031. Last person you watched a movie with → larry
032. Last food you ate→ my favorite ice cream =)
033. Last movie you watched → hsm3 lmfao
034. Last song you listened to → life is a highway
035. Last thing you bought → my favorite ice cream
036. Last person you hugged → no idea, i dont hug so probably cmc

FAVES:
037. Food →i dont know
038. Drinks → sweet tea//miami vice
039. Clothing → jeans
040. Flower → hibiscus
042. Color → turquoise or purple
043. Movies → i dont know
044. Subjects - health was my favorite class ever but i like english too

IN 2009..... I
046. celebrated Halloween: i will if theres a party
047. had your heart broken: nahhhh
048. went over the minutes/texts on your cell phone: unlimited duhh
049. someone questioned your sexual orientation; story of my life
050. came out of the closet: i cant come out of something im not in
051. gotten pregnant: not a chance
052. had an abortion: well no b/c clearly ive haven't even gotten pregnant
053. done something you regretted? nah
054. broke a promise: who knows
055. hid a secret: all day everyday
056. pretended to be happy: of course
057. met someone who changed your life: not met but became friends with
058. pretended to be sick: no
059. left the country: cancun =)
060. tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it: probably
061. cried over the silliest thing: i dont cry
062. ran a mile: with coli
063. went to the beach with your best friend(s): a few times
064. got into an argument with your friends: yeah it was sooo stupid but thanks to drunken nights we made up
065. Hated someone: only 2 people

CURRENTLY:
067. Eating → nope
068. Drinking → nope
069. I'm about to → change how im sitting
070. Listening to → say something by the rascal flatts
071. Plans for today- chill with jessie and maybe larry
072. Waiting for - 10:30 to come around to chill with jessie

YOUR FUTURE:
073. Want kids? → yes and no
074. Want to get married? → yeah to zach
075. Careers in mind → not yet

WHICH IS BETTER WITH A BOY/GIRL?
076. Lips or eyes → ugh both
077. Shorter or taller?→ taller
078. Romantic or spontaneous → both
079. Nice stomach or nice arms → im not picky but arms are freakin hottttt
080. Sensitive or loud--> both
081. Hook-up or relationship --> relationship
082. Trouble-maker or hesitant → both

HAVE YOU EVER:
083. Lost glasses/contacts → yeah but i found em
084. Snuck out of your house → no way
085. Held a gun/knife for self defense → no
086. Killed somebody → no
087. Broken someone's heart- doubt ittt.
088. Been arrested → close but no
089. Cried when someone died → no

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself → to a certain degree
091. Miracles → yeah
092. Love at first sight → no
093. Heaven → yeah
094. Santa Claus → mhm
095. Sex on the first date → nah
096. Kiss on the first date → yeah

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → i can think of 2
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? → no.
099. Do you believe in God → yeah
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people you want to know about→ cant, i chose lj over fb to post it on

everything i need

Wed, 29 Jul 2009 15:48:42 GMT

zach left sunday, its wednesday and i feel like he's been gone a week, life sucks without him. theres nothing to do because there's no one to hang out with.
what am i to do?

but otherwise its summer<3 and im tan and monday-wednesday i dont have work so i do nothing but beach and relax and i love that BUT i have no one to go to the beach with anymore because zach's gone.

FML.

Fri, 24 Jul 2009 21:47:43 GMT

so hows life? well lets just put it this way...

im scared.

but fuck fear im livin large!

but its always in the back of my mind.

summer 09 thus far

Tue, 21 Jul 2009 20:38:45 GMT

car accident; no fun
prom; fun
after prom; fun
graduation; boring but finally done =)
grad party; AMAZING

North Carolina; ehhh
fran; yesssssss
jordan and dylan<333
squigleys =( i miss it
surfing and beach all day<3

work sucks!!!!
my 2nd party; funnnn
zachs grad party; wish i could have stayed
jay's grad party, too much fun
danielle's party; lmfao jessie broke her ankle

lets keep the fun going.
zach leaves on sunday and i dont know what i'm going to do without him, i'm gunna cry for hours probably i spend all my time with him and jessie and larry
and being that jessie and larry aren't friends i feel like theres gunna be a lot of drama but whatever they're the only 2 i hang out with other than zach everyone else is too busy, but hey i guess thats where the expression true few comes from right? being that they've never left my side and are always there to chill when i need them.

i made my schedule for the upcoming semester today
i have 2 classes monday, 3 tuesday, 2 wednesday and one friday morning like 7:30-9:10, that'll suck but whatever at least its early and i have off thursday and all my classes each day are spread out, tuesday is my late night where i have 2 classes and am there from 4pm till 9pm but i also have one class at 7:30 am haha whatever im excited. =)

Sun, 28 Jun 2009 12:08:35 GMT

well i'm done.
1 remember in 2005 walking with jenn to my first ever day of preseason. that was miserable. i didn't even wanna go to centereach because my only friends went to oursavior thank god i went to CHS, by december my church friend spread a rumor and i had like no friends except kelly, nick and the lunch table. then february came rolling through and i met laura and coli and that brought on steph and jess later on. the next 3 years were a blur. there was ups and downs. and for all 3 years i had the best people to share my ups with and the strongest people to get me through my lows. always being the little high school kid. and now look im going off to college and once again im the freshman. what a wild ride. class of 2009. odds are i'll forget about soon. haha but it was fun while it lasted

lyrics are words you cant seem to figure out

Tue, 09 Jun 2009 20:47:39 GMT

So I dream about you now and then
So I wanna kiss your lips
This hope keeps me hanging on to surreal truths
This is how I…
I know that I'm not a part of your dreams
But times made me see that It's easy for me
To pray for the truth and hope to achieve
The love that I hope to find in you
So I've been waiting for my time to come along
I've been praying for the chance to say
I'm mad for you

ive never been so sick of a good feeling.
efff em elle

Mexico with Steph

Fri, 29 May 2009 18:19:04 GMT

Best trip everrrrrrrrrrrrr

limbo to airport +
plane goodbag +
granny getting frisked due to fake knees +
creep on the plane -
margaritas at check in +
Miguel +
new drinks +
old drinks +
tom collins -
snorkeling +
beach volleyball +
pool +
studying the map +
gym -
spa +
kabah (the game) +
steph's 504 pull ups - (sorry but i hated counting every one)
cerveza man -
pool games +
kayaking +
all our mexican friends +
meeting and saving katie and sky +
pool trivia +
annoying bev +
wedding ++++++++++++
mine and jenn's dresses not being altered -
free food and drinks +++++
balcony jumping +
meeting on the balcony's every morning +
bed time talks +
holding a monkey +
holding a toucan +
holding a lizard the size on my arm +/-
chasing lizards +
thinking pagina meant vagina -
finding out pagina does infact paige +
a week with my best friend +
laughing so hard our stomachs hurt +
getting called assholes +
lobby bar at night +
telling the waiters its bev's birthday ++++
waiters writing bed instead of bev on the cake +
telling the flight attendant its bev's birthday +
singing jose jose jose jose jose jose to the waiter, jose +
order a burger by singing cheese burger in paradise +
guacamole and pico de gallo +++
"What the hells the matter with you paige, i paid a lot of money for that!" +++++++++

i can't even remember anything else. lmao

Tue, 12 May 2009 21:02:15 GMT

history has a thing for repeating itself
and look at that, three years later and i've lost all trust again
lmfao
lovely
but whatever, im still laughin

Sat, 09 May 2009 23:24:34 GMT

for two years and 269 days i've been trying to write the perfect song for you.
but like i've told you before these feelings are indescribable.
i love you. thats the only way to put it...
i give up.

Tue, 05 May 2009 00:03:16 GMT

well lets have a looksee at life...

well virginia this weekend was cute,
i <3 thai food, well not really, but i liked mary may's pad-see-you lmfao but i just dont understand thai food.
saturday was cute, the italian place was amazing, i dont like ravioli but it was my favorite thing there, i could have eaten the whole plate.
umm saturday night was fun, drinking and last word. which is like my favorite game.
then spending the whole night texting nick which is my like favorite person to text.
hmmm sunday breakfast, decent...check out, go to cmc and mark's apartment...mark tried taking me to chic-fil-a b/c he's amazing...but NOOOO the fuckin place is closed on sundays fml.

oh and last but not least, jessgerow is the best girl ever ever ever because she texted me everyday and made he laugh so hard. <3

thats about it...cancun is the next trip and its in like 18 days. ah

kings dont need advice from little hornbills for a start

Sun, 26 Apr 2009 19:05:16 GMT

warm weather: two thumbs up
bonfire and looking at the stars: two thumbs up
duckpond//beach: two thumbs up
virginia next weekend//chic-fil-a!!!!!: seven thumbs up
cancun in 26 days: too many thumbs to count.
62 days till graduation: eh one thumb up, its still too far.
approx 33 daysof class left: one thumb, still too far.

i think thats about it.

Wed, 08 Apr 2009 17:22:52 GMT

its funny to look at the differences between my older and younger friends.
you'd think they were from different countries hahahah..

but umm 57 days till pennsylvania!
i mean sure im excited about canucn in 44 days =D
but pennsylvania!!!! i get to see my sister
and im sleeping at her house the first night
gah im so excited.

which btw i love being a jerk to her its so funny when she bugs out.
wow i really am that lame-o little sister =) but i know she loves me for it.

hmm what else what else. i love zach brett and im glad we're friends again ahha
and umm thats about it.
idk why i even bothered with this entry
guess im so excited i wanted to share it

btw im following dalton's diet and hopefully i'll be like him and lose 30lbs in a month.

Sat, 04 Apr 2009 01:54:48 GMT

so im just angry and what better then to do then write an entry that pisses everyone off b/c im gunna write it directed towards someone and so one will know who its to which will irritate you...

you fucking suck, i trusted you and you told me sooo many times that i was your best friend. and yet you ditch me all the time for dick boyfriend. who treats you like shit, he always ditches you and then you come to me bitching and crying but hey you do the same thing to me alllll the time. oh and when theres a new rumor every week about him cheating on you, odds are its true. he flirts with anything with a vagina. he's a dick to you when he's around his friends and he turned you into a complete asshole, everyone sees it and it kills people. you can be in the best mood ever, he calls and you're pissed and say nothing. well im fed up with you're shit, you lied to me, you were one of the two people i trust and you lied, for you're boyfriend. you know alll the right things to say to make me love you and be all happy, and everytime i fall for it but really im sick of you. you suck. and you play like a perfect friend...and you would be if it wasn't for your boyfriend.

Tue, 31 Mar 2009 16:37:08 GMT

so im trying this new thing.
i wanna spread the love of life
and all that cheesey stuff,
so i wanna try and randomly put a smile
on someones face everyday.
i'll have one person per day, it will loop around
so you'll get it twice but
i wanna go out of my way to reach out to a friend
this is so lame, i kinda like it.

Thu, 26 Mar 2009 18:02:11 GMT

zach brett. need i say more?

dominique nicole alotta, has possession of my heart after how amazing she is when im upset.

Jess Gerow turns 21 tomorrow.

57days till cancun.

I love my sister.

i think thats all that needs to be said

Fri, 20 Mar 2009 22:46:10 GMT

=)
i drove benny.
i had a dinner party.
i went to a great st. patricks day party.
i cuddled with zach all night lmao.
i got my first hangover.
i cut my forehead.
i went to olive garden.
schools almost over.
i want to go to pennsylvania.
i want to go to new paltz.
i am not looking foward to prom.
i need a new car.
i am not getting a ew car for a few years.
i think thats about it.
=)

oh yeah and im thinking about joining the marines, coast guard or air force....
surprise! kaybye

Mon, 09 Mar 2009 02:26:51 GMT

i love you....you know this is about you.

you're everything to me and i think about you a lot
and i dont care if youre not mine but i wanna be yours
...forever.

sdlfakjf;oworegacissejsdlfakjf;o
but maybe not

Sing it don't say it

Sun, 01 Mar 2009 15:19:04 GMT

Music is amazing. It says things you can't or don't know how. It will rarely fail you I mean like there's a song for everything it's just a
Matter of finding it. And when you think no one hurts as much as you, you'll here that song and know your not alone.

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Sun, 22 Feb 2009 16:04:12 GMT

well i guess its only fair to document the new paltz snowboarding weekend.

step by step here we go...
thursdays drive was nothing, got there late and went to bed not too long after
friday i woke everyone up nice and early and we went to the mountain.
snowboarding was funn, i LOVE my new board its amazing.
everyone did really well and im pretty sure we all had fun.
we snowboarded for about 3 hours then ate lunch and left,
we relaxed the rest of the day umm we fell asleep from like 9-11
then me laura and sarah got food and went back to bed till
saturday morning...
hmm saturday steph and laura took me into town and we walked around
then we just kinda hung out, oh and we had amazing waffles for breakfast lol
umm steph showed me around campus, and we hung out in my cousins dorm for a little
it was tons of fun and umm im going back soon, b/c steph and laura wanna snowboard again
and im most deff not opposed to that.

=)

flashback!!!

Tue, 17 Feb 2009 18:01:26 GMT

i really miss the old days, but know lifes only gunna bring more memories =)

i specifically have been thinking about me and jess at liz's block party.
me and steph in mandees shopping for pants.
jcounty...im going back this summer, im determined.
laura. need i even say more.
field hockey
oh the good times.

but now lets take a look into the future...
new paltz and snowboarding this weekend.
cancun in may
prom, graduation and grad party in june
north carolina in july
college in september
ohhh snapp
and maybe even road trip with lexi!!!! oh man i really really really hope we do that.
i can see it now, Pennsylvania, Virginia and back to Long Island with my "big sister"
ahhhhh summer needs to come faster! and go by slow

break it down now....

Thu, 12 Feb 2009 23:41:10 GMT

soo tuesday night im driving home from church and my car battery starts to go again...gages start going crazy, my anti lock light comes on and is blinking. i slow down for a stop sign, the car starts jolting, hit the gas, its jolts even worse, i start shaking. i pull into a parking lot btw whole time im on the phone with my mom b/c i was soooo scared...so she says the car can make it home dad said it wouldn't die...i go to make a left hand turn out of the parking lot and my gas pedal stops working, im stuck in the middle of the road and somehow made it to the shoulder.

being that drews home this weekend...im car-less.

some call it love

Thu, 12 Feb 2009 02:26:50 GMT

so theres this girl. her name is laura and she gets me.
i consider her one of my closest friends. i know i could
go to her with anything, and she'll make a funny remark to break the ice
and then give me amazing advice, its really reassuring.
she makes me laugh all the time, she makes my life so overly awkward
but i love it, and i love hearing her stories about everything
she's just amazing. shes so gorgeous and she helps me
when i dont know what to wear. we like to go to friendlys and ihop
and well when we're bored we'll just go and do whatever comes to mind.
we know that we should do school work but instead we like to distract
eachother and then bitch about it later.
she has a weird style but damn does she rock it, and i love it.
when we work out together it really gets us no where because all we do instead
is talk and joke around. but hey thats us for you.
we're rarely serious, one time we were having serious conversations
then ruined it all with a leather glove. ((doesn't that sound kinky?? well it wasnt,
i bugged out on her for wearing a leather glove b/c it scared me))
we also tend to go shopping and spend money we dont have.
at one point in time we played beer pong and lost in about 30 seconds.
i love that she'll play games at the beach with me that
really just involve rolling around in the sand.
i love taking pictures with her, i think fun pictures are her obsession
i love her
and im pretty sure she loves me, she's my valentine and im so glad about it
i guess all i can really say is lucky im inlove with my best friend.<3

Laura A. Makula; you have my heart, forever<3

Wed, 11 Feb 2009 04:56:12 GMT

i love you.
i love the fact that im at my worst and you risk your life for me.

and then theres you...
im at my worst and comfort me and remind me that everything will me okay.

........i'll elaborate tomorrow

but steph and jess, i love you guys

love<3

Sun, 08 Feb 2009 20:14:50 GMT

=) my new snowboard, umm im inlove with it its sooooooooooo hott i can't even tell you!
DC BFF 150<3